A Little Rambling

Had some awful dreams last night, playing on things in my past and some things certain people have said recently, twisting them, leaving me with an awful kind of guilt when I woke up this morning. I was driving to work praying and beating myself up and I turned on the radio, hoping for some song that would bring the words I needed to hear, and on came this song, starting right at the chorus. God knows exactly what we need to hear. "Forgiven" - Sanctus Real Well the past is playing with my head, and failure knocks me down again I’m reminded of the wrong that I have said and done And that devil just wont let me forget In this life I know what I’ve been But here in your arms, I know what I am- I’m forgiven I’m forgiven And I don’t have to carry the weight of who I’ve been 'Cause I’m forgiven My mistakes are running through my mind and I’ll relive my days, in the middle of the night When I struggle with my pain, wrestle with my pride Sometimes I feel alone, and I cry ...

Psalm 143 , ESV + Laura Hear my prayer, O LORD; give ear to my pleas for mercy! I know that you always hear me, Lord, but sometimes it's hard to remember. In your faithfulness answer me, in your righteousness! Enter not into judgment with your servant, for no one living is righteous before you. I know that I would not be able to stand before Your judgment were it not for the blood of Your Son. Even then I am sometimes ashamed to stand before You. For the enemy has pursued my soul; he has crushed my life to the ground; he has made me sit in darkness like those long dead. Therefore my spirit faints within me; my heart within me is appalled. Appalled at my own deeds, and the way I allow the enemy to torment me with dark thoughts. I remember the days of old; I meditate on all that you have done; I ponder the work of your hands. I remember all the times before that You have fulfilled Your promises, and wonder why I ever doubt? I stretch out my hands to you; desperately my ...