A Little Rambling

I tend to stay away from most anything political. I don't particularly like having an opinion. I feel quite strongly that they should be adequately supported, and that requires research, which I rarely have the time and energy to do. Or sometimes, I really want to hold one opinion, and I know that if I do the research my black and white view will turn gray, and so I simply refrain from actually having an opinion in the first place. When the death of Osama bin Laden was announced last night, my first response was, finally. Then it started taking over facebook, some people cheering and others posting scriptures like Matthew 5:44 or Proverbs 24:17 , and then those who were attacking people with, "how dare you rejoice that someone is dead/in hell/etc." I decided I needed an opinion, and here I share it. I am not happy that Osama bin Laden is in hell. I am not rejoicing in his death in any way. The death of one man, even if he is the head of Al Qaeda, does not change...

It's amazing the variety of [obnoxious] noises my kitten can make. Good grief, Charlie Brown. But he's so gosh darn cute (even if he is a little bigger than in this picture now). So, I wrote my blog post yesterday while still in a bit of a post-food poisoning delirium. I had this great idea for the post on Monday, fell violently ill, slept through till Tuesday, and then decided to write. Unfortunately, the inability to hold food down and the extended bouts of delirious sleep kept me from fully expressing what I had planned - and of course, I can't remember half of it now. It was going to be much more fleshed out than that. Instead, I ended up using a lot of Bible verses and not a lot of my own content. Not that I'm complaining - God says things much better than I ever can. I was listening to one of my favorite soundtracks today ( Godspell , if you're curious) and was struck by a line that reminded me of some of what else I was going to say. It's actually ...

I feel like this ^ is the most common image to greet me every time I log onto Facebook. Everyone is having babies! EVERYone is having babies. I feel very left out by not being pregnant, not getting married, and not even having a boyfriend. Usually I can leave it at that and move on, knowing I'm only 22 and therefore have plenty of time, and I'm in no rush. I really do like the freedom in being single! Occasionally, though, it hits hard and I start my own little spiral of self-pity. I've been having this reoccurring dream for about the last month, in which I'm pregnant with a little baby girl named Hannah. They're startlingly realistic, and there have been times I've awoken fully convinced I am having a baby. Throughout the day I will find myself thinking of her, planning for her, and imagining her running up to me, or being scooped up onto her daddy's shoulders, or snuggling in my lap. It's quite surreal. I really want a baby. It's been this...

Ohhhh it's so late! We had another massive rehearsal for Belshazzar's Feast , a beast of an atonal choral/symphonic work. And then I got talked in to going out for doughnuts with the boys. I'm working on putting together a group power point for a project due tomorrow and I'm sooooo tired! Verses. I don't know how to pick! So, as usual, here are several. One of my recently rediscovered favorites - because it so often applies - is Proverbs 13:12 "Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a desire fulfilled is a tree of life." Another that I turn to over and over is Phillipians 4:6-9 "Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is comme...

Psalm 143 , ESV + Laura Hear my prayer, O LORD; give ear to my pleas for mercy! I know that you always hear me, Lord, but sometimes it's hard to remember. In your faithfulness answer me, in your righteousness! Enter not into judgment with your servant, for no one living is righteous before you. I know that I would not be able to stand before Your judgment were it not for the blood of Your Son. Even then I am sometimes ashamed to stand before You. For the enemy has pursued my soul; he has crushed my life to the ground; he has made me sit in darkness like those long dead. Therefore my spirit faints within me; my heart within me is appalled. Appalled at my own deeds, and the way I allow the enemy to torment me with dark thoughts. I remember the days of old; I meditate on all that you have done; I ponder the work of your hands. I remember all the times before that You have fulfilled Your promises, and wonder why I ever doubt? I stretch out my hands to you; desperately my ...